You don’t hate life as much as you think you do. You hate that there are people who make it look easy. They tell you not to worry; they tell you everyone has their own problems. Still, you resent the ones who get an extra Friday night with their friends, who celebrated a holiday with more cheer then you, whose Instagram accounts are filled with more smiles then yours. Of course they’ve been sad, and they’ve felt their share of pain but they don’t sacrifice the time you do. It’s not that you want a life without rain; you just want to know you’re not the only one getting wet.
We’ve all faced with situations that make us say, let me get through this and I promise I’ll change. I promise I won’t drink so much. I promise I won’t speed next time. I promise not to smoke again. I’ll eat cleaner. I’ll try harder. I’ll be better. But, after the moment’s past, we prove the saying to be true, people don’t change. We bargain under pressure. We lie to even ourselves. The person you are is the person that keeps you up at night. The temptations that haunt you when there’s no one around to convince you there’s a better, you can’t seem to otherwise see.